A Peculiar Diary
By Zelia Logan-Smith
Sermon Topic: Coming to Understanding - Spiritual Growth
Main Verse: Mark 4 Chapter
Note: The numbers indicate references in the study guide at the end of the text.
1-24 I know you have wondered about things; the things that exist in unknown places. You have even wondered about what happened before the book of Genesis. 2 To deny this might merit a close self -examination of your inner self for 3-39 we are a peculiar people. What makes us peculiar? 39 What is so special about us that caused an upset in the entire spirit realm and a disturbance in the force? 39 Why are we here? Right away, you have already thought: 29 this is not necessary for salvation, 4 this is foolishness. However, 26-28 the knowledge of these things is vital to begin 47 the process of awakening in order to obtain that Higher Degree of Glory; 8 our eternal destination, and to partake of 26-27-28-33-36 the benefits of salvation.
The development of this study is from scriptures in The Holy Bible; 5 No way do they dispute or disclaim the things that written in the sacred book or are they meant to cause contention. 1-6-24 It is intended to further enhance the meaning of the scriptures and enlighten the reader as to life in the Word. I was 7 lead by The Holy Spirit over a period of 63 years in bringing these things forth; they were always present in my life in the quest for knowledge, even as a child. The way by which they came forth verified that it was 7-18-32 the work of The Almighty One that had 8 a beginning before the beginning of time’s time; 9 revealed to a child on milk.
10 It was the year 1950-1951 when I was only 2 years old, the period of my mischievous escapades as a child, when 48 peculiar things were happening but I could not tell anyone, 29 because I really did not know what it was. 48 I can recall dreams that came into existence and witnessed visions as an everyday experience. Besides that, I dared not mention it because I caused enough peculiar things to happen just by living every day. I was a sort of “Deep Delta Rural Dennis The Menace”… I was curious, very curious and the fact that 11 I was the only child at home with aged parents did not help matters at all.
The curiosity was so great until daddy could not go and fellowship with the deacons at the church because of me, I wanted to follow him everywhere he went. 12--24 Daddy often studied The Bible and 14-15 influenced me to do the same by feeding me the milk of the Word. 13-14-15 I was engaged in riddles of concepts and precepts in The Word and these things remained in my Spirit. Being the only child at home, I often played alone but I developed creative methods of play. 14 I played church in the pond down the lane; the congregation was twigs that fell from the walnut trees. I dressed the little people of wood in scraps of cotton material; I baptized them as I sang in the choir and preached. 14-15-12 I loved to imitate daddy so therefore, 15 I often picked up the bible and pretended to study. He actually allowed me to play with his books in order to view the beautiful colorful pictures of ancient places and characters. 15 I pretended to be characters in the pictures; 14-16 I must have known that I belonged in the Word. 15-17 I always pretended to be a character that was close to the one that had the light around his head.
I could not read at this time but daddy taught me how to write my first name. I remember trying to write it on paper; daddy’s bible. I wrote constantly in the book of Matthew 16: 4 and even though I did not know it then , years later, I found the page where I had written the backwards “Z”…the upside down “E”…the crooked “L” the side -ways “I and the “a” that looked like an “o”. I laughed upon viewing this but laughter stopped when I saw that I had written my name where Jonas name recorded in the verse. That verse reads: “A wicked and adulterous generation seeketh after a sign; and there shall no sign be given unto it, but the sign of the prophet Jonas…
Music was an everyday companion of the family and daddy taught me the very first song, “Angels Keep Watch Over Me”. I would sing this to him and he would coach me how to hold out notes and keep in tune. I can imagine the words that I made up while trying to perform for him. That song remained in my head. Boy, to think that angels were watching over me, this made me straighten up a bit from all of the havoc I caused. Music became a major part of my life in the ministry of music with my family.
Another thing I always thought about was 48 the mysterious dreams and visions I experienced; they too, remained in my memory and I seriously began to focus on them. 24 I began to wonder why and what they were about and the purpose of experiencing them. I wondered if anyone else had the same experiences however, I desired not to cause further negative attention; I kept this bottled up; 29 never the thought of putting them on paper. As time went by, I became even more inquisitive and the dreams and visions became defined and real. Eventually the Holy Spirit led me 18-19 to record these unusual things in a journal and in 1995, I began the process of writing about these peculiar things.
19 I reflected upon past personal experiences and recorded the events in chronological order. I consulted the scriptures for a title of the journal but upon scanning through the book of Genesis for a title, 20 the search was adverted because of the revelation of another peculiar thing. 21 I discovered similar events and things in my personal life to those of characters in the ancient sacred text. 30This was the first stage of awakening to understanding. 6-22-27 I begin to see the scriptures in a manner of which I had never understood. 5 I saw in the Spirit inspired men of God as they wrote across the ages of time; our spirits were in harmony as 21 they wrote about and personally to me. I heard the echo of their voices calling out my name saying, “this if you”. Ancient writers such as Daniel, Isaiah, Jeremiah, Solomon and David became friends who knew of significant personal things in my life, which would be irreverent to anyone else. 16 I wept as I read Jeremiah and experienced tender love, grace and mercy as I spoke with David.
There was also a peculiar fact about an ancient character in the book of Genesis that was similar to an item in my life. 16 Joseph, the dreamer, was given a coat of many colors and this was similar to the pallet of many colors, which was given to me during childhood. The many colors in Joseph’s coat represented he and his brothers (his family) the twelve tribes of Israel. 16 My little pallet of many colors was pieced together from scraps of clothing of various family members. This discovery caused my heart to skip a beat! I begin to search for other similarities to my life in The Word. Many scriptures are pre-recorded and personal to me. 11-16 Joseph was the child of aged parents and so was I… 16 Hannah, the mother of Samuel, prayed a made a vow unto the Lord for a child…Mama had made that same petition and vow. 16 Hannah also made a coat for Samuel and placed him under the care of Eli, the priest and this was similar to daddy keeping me on my toes in The Word.
A 6-22-27 discernment of many unreferenced scriptures and unknown paths revealed refreshing insights. These Insights brought an understanding of various concepts and precepts of the Word and presented a 22-23-26-27-28-33-36 weaning process from the bottle or milk of the Word. I was excited about the revelation of other 1-26 unreferenced concepts and this caused me to 24 further investigate and seek. 25 I am a witness when ones comes to wisdom he will be troubled and when troubled he will further 24 seek and find. The results of the discovery of these scriptures ushered me 24 into seeking 1-26 the hidden mysteries of The Kingdom and other things that Jesus did.24 I became even more inquisitive with questions concerning various things in the bible. I was troubled and this would be the 30 second stage of awakening to understanding. In 2007 and after 27researching, investigating and comparing scriptures for over 12 years, simplicity began to arise in understanding; 30 I had entered into the third stage of awakening.
27- 28 In 2010, a clearer view of the meaning of parables began to arise. Recorded events and time spans recorded in the ancient text were not correlating and seemed to be contradictory and simple phrases were 1-24the key to new meaning of topics and concepts. 29 The music was still at the forefront of activity but 1-24-26 the other was stronger, it was peculiar, it was mysterious and in no way would I have even conceived that it would be the most important. I became reverently bold and demanded an answer and just at the time when I was about to give up and live a normal life in studying the scriptures, 7-30 the Holy Spirit tied it all together and now I knew that 30 the fourth stage of awakening to understanding had come into view. 31 I am sitting here writing about personal things based upon correlated scriptures references. The pre-destined book was established 32 before the beginning of time; 3-8 I am just one of the characters to play out the part.
Diary Note: Today is July 20, 2012: I wrote the above paragraph in 2010; I knew nothing of acquiring knowledge in stages but I had been in a preparatory stage of life that revealed peculiar things and events, line upon line, precepts upon precepts.
33 -It poured out on me in December 2010, that fountain that He spoke of and it filled me up to the brim. Along with that filling up came 34 a surge of hope, positive expectations, physical energy and a revamping of self- esteem. The Research, Investigation and Comparison of scriptures was most revealing and enlightening. 35 I pray that that same Spirit of Quest would flow upon you. This Quest brings about an 36 increase in knowledge, spoken of in The Word of God. Seek and you will find…Knock and the door will be opened unto the mysterious and peculiar things of Him.
37 I am witnessing the manifestation of events foreshadowed and revealed to me during early childhood. 29 I would have never even considered performing an extensive search through The Word of God in order find my autobiography and develop a bible study guide; this is how The Holy Spirit work! The ultimate result of this quest paved the way for 30 the fifth stage of awakening to understanding. It did come forth in stages. After reflecting upon 60 years of memories from the banks of my mind, 8 I had been on this path from the beginning but I did not know it, 5-18 and this is what makes this project so peculiar and real.
Further witnessing by The Holy Spirit, revealed that most of the written text of this book was written in original music before I came into the realization of what was going on. 18-38 My life had already foreshadowed the written text along with the creation of original music. I am most honored to have been over inquisitive and a bother to those around me with all those “foolish questions”. I cherish the loneliness that I experienced as a child and still undergo. 39 I personally know Him now and I am most thankful for the guidance and safekeeping of my total being throughout the years. I thank Him for hearing my prayers when as a child of three years old, I asked, “Where are you and how do I search for you; Why are hiding from me?” Again, 40-42 what an honor to share!
41 Pray and begin your scripture research directed by your autobiography and be 42 prepared to share with others in 43The Body. 44Be blest and contribute to the Increase in Knowledge in The Body of Christ…desire to obtain other insights from others in The Body and watch for a Spirit of sharing to arise. You will also experience 45 the coming together of The Body as required by Jesus. He is not coming back for a scattered Body; He is coming for the Whole.
46 The little girl that was born where lightening bugs were the only lights at night on Turkey Creek in the rural of Louisiana is now sharing insights from ancient times. 47 Renew your train of thoughts and enter into the area outside of the box pertaining to the things of God. In doing so you will discern and experience that wonderful personal relationship he has with us and the guidance provided for us to obtain that higher degree of glory. To God be the Glory.
This research has changed my life and I am very much pleased and honored to share this message with you. I pray that your path illuminated, while on this journey. The search for a title of the journal on 48 dreams and visions is now an extensive research and study guide of The Word of God: Our Almighty One is Peculiar.
Peculiar Diary
Coming To Understanding
Study Guide One
1 Psalms 106: 2 Unwritten concepts
Isaiah 42: 16 Unknown paths
2 I Chronicles 17: 16-19 Self- evaluation
Romans 12: 3 Self- evaluation
II Corinthians 13: 5 Self -evaluation
3 Exodus 19:5 A peculiar people
I Samuel 9: 6 A peculiar person
I Corinthians 12:14,18 One member doing his part
I Peter 2: 2-9 A peculiar people
4 I Corinthians 1:18-21 The foolishness of wisdom
I Corinthians 1: 25 The foolishness of wisdom
I Corinthians 1: 27-28 The foolishness of wisdom
I Corinthians 2: 14 The foolishness of things in the Spirit
5 II Samuel 23: 2 Holy Spirit Authorship
Luke 1:1-4 Ordained writing
II Corinthians 3: 3 Scripture’s authorship
II Timothy 2: 23 Avoid contention and disputes
II Timothy 3: 16-17 Scriptures are from God
Titus 3: 9 Avoid contention
I Peter 1: 21 Scriptures authors moved by the Holy Ghost
II Peter 1: 20-21 All Scriptures Inspired
6 Psalm 119: 130 Understanding of the scriptures gives light
Luke 24:45 Minds open to understand the scriptures
John 20: 31 Written that you might believe
Ephesians 3: 2 The Word Forwarded to Us
I John 4: 9-10,14 To see life through the word
7 Psalm 31: 3 Lead and Guide
John 14: 26 Teach and remind you of all things
I Corinthians 2: 13 Taught by the Holy Spirit
8 Isaiah 41: 4 Called forth the generations from the beginning
John 17 Those who were given to Him before the Foundation of the world
Ephesians 1: 4 Chosen before the foundation of the world
I Peter 1: 20 A plan for us before the foundation of the worlds
9 Psalm 8:2 Children and infants establishes strongholds
Psalms 71: 17-18 Taught from youth
Matthew 11:25 We as children, have the knowledge of the secrets
Matthew 21:6 Praise called forth from children and infants
Luke 10:21 Wisdom hidden from the wise and prudent
I Corinthians 3: 1-2 Babes in Christ fed milk
I Peter 2: 2 The milk of the Word
10 Psalm 77:5 Looking back
Lamentations 1: 7 Good life remembered
11 Genesis 15: 3-6 Children born in old age
Genesis 17: 7 Children born in old age
Genesis 37:3 Joseph child of aged parent
12 Proverbs 4:3-4 Teach your children
Proverbs 22: 6 Properly training children
Deuteronomy 4:9 Teach your children
Deuteronomy 6: 7 Family influence
Hebrew 12: 10 Faithful training
Colossians 3: 20 Children encouragement
13 Proverbs 1: 6 Riddles of the wise
Luke 20: 2-8 A wise riddle
Jude 14: 12 Telling riddles
14 Proverbs 4:3-4 A child’s receptive mind
Proverbs 20:11 A child is known by his actions
15 II Chronicles 17:3 Parental influence
I Kings 9: 4 Parental influence
Ephesians 5: 1 Imitating parents
I Thessalonians 2:11-12 Father inspires children
16 Genesis 37:3 Joseph and the coat of many colors
Genesis 37: 5 Joseph, the dreamer
I Samuel 1: 24-28 Dedication of Samuel to the Lord
I Samuel 1: 27- 28 Hannah lent Samuel to The Lord for His service
I Samuel 2: 19 Hannah’s coat for Samuel
I Samuel 1: 11 Hannah’s Petition
I Samuel 3:1 Samuel under the care of Eli
The Book of Psalm Grace, Love and Mercy
Exodus 28: 17-21 Twelve stones representing the names of the sons
16 Jeremiah 9:1 The weeping prophet
Romans 1:19-20 For me
Romans 8: 29-30 Fore knowledge of us in The Word
Ephesians 1: 4-5 Fore knowledge of us in The Word
Ephesians 1:9,11-12 Foreknowledge of us in The Word
Hebrew 19:7 About me
17 Ephesians 2:18 Access to God
Hebrew: 10: 22-23 Draw near to God with sincerity
II Timothy 2: 11-13 Relationship with Christ
18 Exodus 34: 27 Ordained writing
Proverbs 8: 7 What I speak is truth
Psalms 119:35 Pre-destined to record dream & vision journal
18 Jeremiah 36: 4 Writing truth
Isaiah 30: 8 Instructed to record dreams and visions
Daniel 6: 6-9 Put it in writing
Daniel 7: 1 Daniel recorded his dream
Luke 1: 1-4 Ordained writing
I Corinthians 14: 36-37 What I write about is from God
19 Malachi 3: 16 A book of remembrances
II Timothy 1: 5-6 Remember
II Timothy 3: 15 Recall past experiences
20 Romans 8:28 All things for the good
21 I Chronicles 29: 29-30 David’s biography
Psalm 40:7 In the volume of the book it is written of me
Isaiah 61: 1-3 Jesus prophetically spoken of in the word
Luke 4: 16:21 Jesus reads of himself in the word
Romans 1:19-20 For me
Hebrews 10: 7 Jesus speaks of Himself as written in the scrolls
Hebrew 10:7 It is written of me in the book
Hebrew 19:7 About me
22 Proverbs 23: 11 Discernment
Matthew 13: 8 Seed on Good Ground
Luke 8: 15 Seed on Good Ground
Ephesians 1: 18-19 Eyes enlightened to know the hope
Galatians 1: 12 Received By revelation
Philippians 1: 9-10 Ability to Discern
22 Hosea 14: 9 Who is discerning, he will understand
23 Proverbs 4:7 Get wisdom, the principal thing
Isaiah 28: 9-10 Weaned from milk to obtain wisdom
Hebrews 5: 14 Strong meat after discernment
Ephesians 4: 14 No longer infants
1 Peter 2:2 The milk of the Word
24 II Chronicles 15:15 Spiritual Hunger
I Chronicles 28:9 Seek Him
Psalm 119: 18, 33-38 Pray for guidance in bible study
Proverbs 25: 2 Search out a matter
Proverbs 28: 5 They That Seek Understand All Things
Ecclesiastes 7:25 Searching to find out the reason of things
II Timothy 2: 7, 15 Study/research The Word
Hebrews 6: 4-6 Continue to search
24 II Chronicles 15: 2 Search for Him, He will be found
Nehemiah 8: 17-18 Day after day study
Psalm 119: 40 Longing for God’s precepts
Job 11: 7 Search for God
Matthew 5: 6 Blessed are they that hunger
Act 17: 11 Examine scriptures daily
John 5: 39 Study the scriptures
II Timothy 2: 7, 15 Study / Research the Word
25 Genesis 3: 7 They had knowledge and woe began
Ecclesiastes 1: 18 Grief and sorrow in wisdom
John 9: 41 When the eyes were opened, sin remaineth
26 Isaiah 48: 3-9 Things Hidden by God
Matthew 13: 11-15 Knowledge of the secrets of the kingdom given us
Ephesians 3: 9-12 Fellowship of the mysteries
Ephesians 3:3-5 Mysteries revealed by the Spirit
Ephesians 3: 9,18, 19 Mysteries made known
Colossians 1: 25-27 Mysteries made known to the saints
Colossians 4: 3 Entrusted with the secrets things of God
Philippians 1: 9 Full Insight
27 Psalms 19:7 Making Wisdom simple
Psalms 119: 130 Understanding as to the simple
Proverbs 1: 4 To give subtlety to the simple
28 Ephesians 1:9 Fellowship of the Mystery of God
29 Proverbs 3:5 Lean not to your own understanding
Proverbs 16: 1 Man’s Plan, God’s Purpose
I Samuel 3:5-9 Samuel not knowing the voice of God
Matthew 6: 10 God’s will be done
Ephesians 1: 11 The Purpose of His Will
Ephesians 1: 4-5,9-11 Purpose of his will
Romans 16: 27 The ultimate purpose of all things
30 Proverbs. 19: 2,3 The Soul Without Knowledge Is Not Good
I Corinthians 2: 13 Taught By The Holy Spirit
I Corinthians 3: 6-8 Line upon line
31 Psalm 5:10-13 Witnessing about personal things
32 I Peter 1: 20 A plan for us before the foundation of the worlds
John 15:16 We are chosen to bring forth fruit
Roman 8: 29-30 A predestined plan
II Timothy 1:19 Purpose of his will
33 Psalm 36:9 Fountain of lfe
Proverbs 16:22 A wellspring of life
Mark 4:20 Spiritual growth
Romans 7: 6 Newness of spirit
Romans 12: 2-3 Renewal of your mind
Ephesians 2: 2-6 Life Not as Before
Ephesians 3: 19 Filled with the fullness of God
Colossians 1:13, 21 Delivered and Reconciled From Darkness
Philippians 1: 9 Full Insight
I Peter 1: 18 Delivered From Traditions
I Peter 3: 21 Renewal of the Mind
Hebrew 10: 22 Mind Cleared From An Evil Conscience
John 4:10-14 Living waters
John 7:37-39 Water for the thirsty
John 9: 25 I Was Blind, Now I See
Psalm 23: 5 My Cup Runneth Over
I Corinthians 15: 42-43 From weakness to power
II Corinthians 3: 13-18 Blindness Taken Away
I Corinthians 4: 1 Entrusted with the secret things of God
34 Psalm 62: 5 My Hope comes from Him
Proverbs 2:10 Knowledge will be pleasant to your soul
Isaiah14:24 Certain of God’s plan
Hosea 12: 6 Expecting abundance from God
Romans 8: 19-22 Our expectations
Romans 8: 25 Hope in the unseen
34 II Corinthians 4: 18 Faith in the unseen
Hebrew 11: 1, 13 Certain of God’s Plan
Philippians 2: 13 Positive Expectations
35 Ephesians 6: 18 Pray for one another
II Corinthians 13: 10 To build you up
Colossians 1:9 Pray for you
II Thessalonians 3: 1 Pray that the Word may have free course
Philippians 1:9-11 Pray for you to abound In knowledge
36 Proverbs 1: 5 Increase in learning
Daniel 12:4 Knowledge to increase
Mark 4: 30-32 Increase in knowledge
37 John 14: 26 Teach and remind you of all things
38 Psalm 49: 1 Literature with music
Psalm 49: 4 Accompaniment to a proverb
I Samuel 10: 5 Prophesy accompanied by music
II Kings 3: 15 Prophesy set to Music
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Psalm 17: 8 Apple of His eye
Romans 1: 1-6 Belonging to Jesus
Romans 8: 14-16 We are the sons of God
Acts 17: 24-26 We are off springs of God
Acts 17: 28-29 We are off springs of God
John 13: 8 He knows them that are his
John 15: 1-2, 4 The branch from the vine
Ephesians 2: 19 We are citizens of the household of Christ
Ephesians 3: 14-15 The family name
Hebrews 2: 6-8 What is man
Revelation 4:11 Created for the pleasure of the Lord
40 Romans 12: 3 Humble thinking
II Corinthians 8: 16 Thankful to share the gospel
41 Psalm 119: 18, 33-38 Pray for guidance in bible study
42 Act 18: 24-26 Sharing Insights into the scriptures
II Corinthians 9:9 Sharing the Increase
43 Ephesians 1: 22-23 The church his body
44 II Corinthians 13: 10 To build you up
Romans 12: 10 Honor one another
45 John 17 Unity in the body
Romans 15:5 Spirit of unity
I Corinthians 1: 10 No division/ In harmony
Ephesians 2:13 Unity in Christ
Colossians 2: 2 Unity
46 II Corinthians 12: 1-6 Not as equal as with the ancients
I Corinthians 1: 26-29 Not proclaiming nobility
I Corinthians 12: 23 Humbleness
Ephesians 3: 8 Least among all
47 Psalm 23: 5 My Cup Runneth Over
Proverbs 2: 9 Then you will understand
Proverbs 4:5 Get understanding
Proverbs 23: 23 Get understanding
Isaiah 28:9 Weaned from milk to obtain wisdom
Hosea 10: 12 Break up fallow ground
Mark 4:20 Spiritual growth
Mark 4: 30-31 The mustard seed
John 8: 32 The truth shall make you free
Ephesians 3: 14 Reading under the spirit of wisdom
Ephesians 5: 8,14 Awake from darkness
Romans 13: 11-14 Awake from slumber
I Corinthians 15: 42-43 From weakness to power
II Corinthians 3: 13-18 Blindness Taken Away
Colossians3: 10 Renewed in knowledge
Colossians 1:13, 21 Delivered and reconciled from darkness
Hebrews 5:14 Strong meat for mature believers
I Peter 1: 18 Delivered from traditions
II Timothy 1: 5 Eliminating tradition…gain sound mind
I Peter 3: 21 Renewal of the Mind
47 John 9: 25 I was blind, now I see
Romans 12: 2-3 Renewal of your mind
Hebrew 10: 22 Mind cleared from an evil conscience
I Peter 1: 18 Delivered from traditions
I Peter 3: 21 Renewal of the mind
48 Genesis 15: 12-16 Abrams dream
Genesis 28:11-15 Jacob’s dream
Genesis 28: 15 Visions / Peculiar things
Genesis 37: 6-7, 9 Joseph’s dream
Job 33: 14 -16 God’s purpose for speaking through dreams and visions
Daniel 2: 28 Secrets revealed through dreams
Joel 2:28 The Spirit to reveal dreams and visions
Matthew 19:20 Communication by dreams
Matthew 2:12 Communication by dreams
II Corinthians 12:1-9 Paul’s vision
